Notice the trend...

I only blog when I have a midterm to study for. Sad, but true. What will happen when I'm done with all this school bullshit and I actually have no reason to procrastinate. That will be frightening.

I wonder if it will ever happen.

On to physics. If all goes well, my last physics midterm. Ever.

Scary to think.

Who am I trying to impress?

Nobody.

Therefore I can make a completely superficial list of my (should-be) lovers. Enjoy.

Ryan Gosling (obviously)
Hugh Jackman
Dermot Mulroney
Patrick Dempsey
Josh Hartnett
Orlando Bloom (JH and OB just in for the 14 year old me)
Brandon Routh
Justin Timberlake

Oh yes. Oh, and I'm looking forward to my midterm tomorrow morning by the way.

"and whisper in my ear, that all these years..."

Today I've been a vegetarian for three years. Sometimes I even impress myself. I think when people ask how long I've been a vegetarian I'll feel better saying "three years," I mean, as opposed to two. Not that that makes any sense. It's almost like how I'm hoping to feel better telling people my age when I turn 20.

I was just doing the MSDS information for my lab tomorrow and I only realized after I finished all of it that I blogged earlier with the title Acetic Acid. Therefore I've already done the MSDS info for CH3COOH, and I'm lame. Actually, its more lame that I'm talking about this. And more so that I've said lame twice already. Now three times.

So, I've been trying to figure out my phases. Let's put them in list format:

1. (February 2007) - Okcupid.com

I randomly decided to do a dating website, met a few people, then dropped it.

2. (March 2007) - Ace of Hearts Dog Rescue

Granted, still a little obsessed with this...considering I volunteer every Saturday. But I'm not constantly researching pit bulls like I was for a couple of weeks.

3. (March 2007 Continued) - Rent/House

Rent, the musical. House, the TV series. This was spring break. Also when I started this blog that I haven't told anyone about.

4. (April 2007) - The Notebook/Ryan Gosling/Rachel McAdams

I've seen this movie before. A lot. So I decided to buy it, not knowing that I'd become obsessed. These things happen sometimes. It reminds me of being 14 and in love with Josh Hartnett. Seriously, it was a scary time.
I have to go to bed at some point tonight.

...with my head cut off.

I'm sick of this week.

My boss is sick. And my throat hurts. This quarter is not starting off well. On top of that I haven't found an apartment and I have a midterm tomorrow.

I'm in an awful mood.

Just awful.

the current

I should be finishing up my resume, or sleeping. I think my roommate misses her boyfriend. She's talking to him in her sleep. It makes me want to laugh, but also to cry a little bit.

I've been getting really mad at one of my close friends lately. Granted, I don't say anything about it. Cause I'm a pushover and because I'm passive-agressive, but its grating on my nerves. She forced me to go to breakfast at about 8:30 this morning. I usually wake up at 8:30 to get to a 9:00 class. And see, the extra 15 minutes I have to be awake annoy me more than the two hours I just wasted on the internet. Silly, I know. But there's only so much criticism I can stand from one person.

"Well, maybe if you'd GONE to class."

"You're pretty damn loud yourself."

"I wouldn't know, I don't STALK people."

These are all relatively subtle, and could be construed as jokes. But really, I don't ever feel the need to tell her that she wants me to go to physics simply because she doesn't want to be by herself. And then when we're there she yells at me to pay attention. Now really, isn't it enough that you dragged me out of bed to eat two grapefruit halves that I can pay attention at the times that I want to? And I honestly don't even like breakfast. My stomach is not prepared to be full that early in the morning. Also...the lactose intolerance doesn't help. And oatmeal makes me gag.

I'm going to stop talking at some point, I swear.

Anyway...I'm really hoping to get this job as an education specialist at the zoo. Would that be amazing? I figure I fill some requirements...I work in customer service, I did a lot of theater, and I'm a Biology major. This should help with the attainment of this amazing job right? Right?

Acetic Acid (5%)

I just got a little bit of orange in my eye. At least it woke me up.

You know those nights when you just don't want to get anything done? When you kinda just want to sit around and feel like crap? I wish those nights didn't exist. This would make chemistry so much easier. Instead I'm blogging. How does that make any sense.

I haven't talked to him in a month. This somehow doesn't clue him in to me not liking him. It somehow gives him reason to call me and leave a long voicemail about hanging out. I thought he was supposed to be mature. I personally believe that you only come upon real maturity if you recognize a second party ignoring you as a sign of their deep hatred of you.

So, being 10 years younger than him, I'm still a lot more mature.

It seems insane.

"You never know what you're gonna get."

"I'm not slacking off
Or backing out
Or cracking up with doubt...
I'm working it out."

I missed an important deadline for a great internship at the LA zoo. Boo to me. Now I'm just trying to finish up my physics homework. Boo to physics.

I get less intelligent as the night goes on.